the threads in her head

Music please.

Switch on the computer and put a positive song with a depressing beat on repeat. Listen to it till it gets grating on your nerves. Till it's too overbearing, too much too much. Then closed the window and switch the song. Switch to a negative song with a upbeat tone. Then shut it all down. And feel the silence overwhelming. It's not noticeable at first, but then, as you slowly get exasperated with homework, and stop doing it, you'll feel that silent buzz creep up on you.

Indulge in pleasure, oh, please do. Just indulge in them, and throw yourself into oblivion for a while. Note that I used the word "indulge". I wonder whether alcohol really knocks you out. Just a thought.

That peach drink, that's supposed to have the biting tone of alcohol isn't hot enough for me all of a sudden. It's not even gassy enough, so much of its flavour seem to have been lost. But yes, I admit that was when I was sipping the drink.

But gulp it down, and choke on it.

Continue gulping.

Feel the gas run up your nose. Feel that dryness in your throat. Feel too full, just too full in your stomach. It's an awful bloated sickness, one that shouldn't continue.

But continue gulping.

Yet I know the drink fills up the stomach and not the heart.

There's a bitter taste on my tongue left by the drink.