Please. Not this again. Now now.
That fluttering heart feeling wells me up. Not the nice one. The horrid one which makes me feel out of breath, which entangles itself around my heart, winding itself about and choking me.
This was meant to be the holidays! But a queer nausea-like feeling overcome me. I don't know how to describe it. I really don't. It flashes up from my heart to my head and wells over me, floods it, and I'm left all weak and clammy. Unpleasant. Like a shock up to my head, and making me feel all sick. Why.
Why!
And I can't find the reason, the underlying cause. And the very fact I can't makes it all the more worse, makes the feeling quake at my heart, leaving me unsettled and lost. Fluttering, quaking, trembling, quivering. From an unknown uneasy feeling, an giddiness nausea shoots up to my head.
This is more than I can take. Oh, let me curl up and ignore how time is slipping slipping through my fingers.
December 17, 2006
December 14, 2006
Burst into laugher,
hug yourself. Let the smile play at the corner of your lips as this pleasant feeling burst and well out in full force, in you, around you. Oh oh, hug yourself close.
This is the type of smile that will tug at your lips, that's gonna fill your heart with a happy jingle, that's gonna fill your thoughts. Oh oh, I could attack anything right now!
What is there to describe about this. It's, it's just welling, welling welling up. All the childish laugher and joy, shrieks and shouts right out there in the bright loud big sun. Radiant, shiny, laughs, chuckles, giggles.
Kiddy?
Yeah!
There are people whom you avoid, people whom you care about, people whom you respect, people whom would let you do.
And there are people who bring the sun into your life.
I don't understand any longer. I can't write anymore on this blog, nothing comes out really. What role has this blog really been playing? And why does a role not exist for it anymore.
Am I thinking less, or are there less knots to unravel. Or have I lost my passion, or found a new better one. Oh, I don't know.
For the moment I don't mind all that much.
Maybe later. Maybe later I'll come back to this.
hug yourself. Let the smile play at the corner of your lips as this pleasant feeling burst and well out in full force, in you, around you. Oh oh, hug yourself close.
This is the type of smile that will tug at your lips, that's gonna fill your heart with a happy jingle, that's gonna fill your thoughts. Oh oh, I could attack anything right now!
What is there to describe about this. It's, it's just welling, welling welling up. All the childish laugher and joy, shrieks and shouts right out there in the bright loud big sun. Radiant, shiny, laughs, chuckles, giggles.
Kiddy?
Yeah!
There are people whom you avoid, people whom you care about, people whom you respect, people whom would let you do.
And there are people who bring the sun into your life.
I don't understand any longer. I can't write anymore on this blog, nothing comes out really. What role has this blog really been playing? And why does a role not exist for it anymore.
Am I thinking less, or are there less knots to unravel. Or have I lost my passion, or found a new better one. Oh, I don't know.
For the moment I don't mind all that much.
Maybe later. Maybe later I'll come back to this.
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