the threads in her head

7th july last year-
(an sms exchange. it was a nice day.)

kor: booya. i demand to know how my one and only mei is feeling.

me: Cheered up by your sms =)

kor: physical well-being, i'm referring to! :D

me: Wah, don't want to tell. Later get denied of my job.

kor: stubbornness is one of the many qualities employers detest, with applicants showing such signs rejected at first sight.

me: Backache in the afternoon, and still hurting a little. But it was because I played a little volleyball yesterday and walked around a lot today conducting surveys I guess. Still easily tired, but I'm persisting on like the hardworking person I am and going about my tasks.

kor: mm i see. you really should take care of yourself. take a nice break when you have to, okay? and know your physical limits, please!

me: Yes kor. Waiting for the fireworks now!

kor: oh er you're at the rehearsals? haha, i was supposed to be a lifeguard there but i couldn't make it for many rehearsals. have fun, you.

-after a while-

me: Caught my fireworks =)

kor: describe. (5)

me: Bursts of brilliance. Explosions of white blue, red, green, yellow fairy dust, the sound of every launch rocking through your heart and seemingly a tangible force that goes around your heart, pushing and pulling. Boom boom boom and there are more and more of those brilliant lights, and then they are spreading out and further, beyond, and another second there are stars coming towards you, and the more they spread the more they seem to be coming towards you, closer and closer, nearer and nearer -are they going to come so close you can touch them- and the distance still rings with new and old booms, the world is lit alight with brilliance as the sparks sail with ease towards you - closer and closer, and closer! and EVEN closer; the booms have stopped as it soars nearer.. And then, all dissolve into the dark embrace of the night sky, there's the sound of clapping. The show has ended.

kor: what detail! but alas, what's that but sound of fury, and like a walking shadow, is a mere illusion with the trick of illumination

me: -aghast- what kind of kor is this to spoil his one and only mei's joy!

kor: it takes a realistic one, a person that's tangible and exists nowhere in the figment of imagination.
(few minutes later)
but when what remains is but a mash of combusted carbon, the beauty and art is, priceless.

me: Trying to redeem your awful act of making your mei fell from the clouds? =(

kor: fall, your grammar fails you. as the chinese saying goes, first bitter, then sweet. for others, like you, it's the other way round.

me: There, now you realise how deeply hurt she is - to have even made a grammar mistake - killjoy.

kor: i plead guilty to the murder of my mei's joy. what i would like to receive as punishment is to be able to cheer her up. how do you find the prospect of being in jc next year?

me: I don't really know what to think. It sounds exciting, activities-filled and all, but at the same time when you're still undecided about cca and subject choices and not feeling confident enough to even imagine taking your desired subjects it can be quite a headache and weight around your heart.

kor: mm what're you inclined towards? clubs and societies, sports or perf arts? humanities or the arts? how about the introduction of the opposite gender?

me: Humanities or the arts? Why wasn't science included? I might be more inclined to clubs and soceity, never really liked the audition part of performing arts, and as sporty as I look, my sport is nature rambles, or so I would like to think anyway. Introduction of opposite gender is a "so what". I'm not guy-shy, I don't have much prejudices against them, and I'm not going to date. End of story.

kor: freudian slip :/ i meant humanities or sciences - i guess i'm half-expecting you to go into humanities. mm at least you have a category to look at! mm i think it's the eating part that's most worrying, but that isn't for you, that's great! :D

me: You might want to uh, check your sms before you send. Fancy typing dating as eating... Yep we all know there might be girls crushing on you, and sending you love letters, so you can worry about it, and I'll try not to laugh too much. Mm, I'm inclined towards humans, but yea >< I don't feel good enough for it..

kor: o_O and grass is purple-striped. 'competence and calibre are not problems. the things to have are passion and a good attitude.

me: I'll keep that quote in mind. Ah, don't think it's that far-fetched kor, you can be quite charming. The charm of a diplomat in training ah. "he's cute!" which is a bit boo, cuz I want to remind your own and only mei, but oh well, that shall be life.

kor: who are you quoting! my nonexistent pet dog, is it? of course, a dog's master is always cute. i didn't get your last sentence, remind who of what?

me: Oops. Remain I mean.