the threads in her head

I think about you-

The faint fragrance that still occasionally wafts from your jacket is very comforting and calming, even though I know it is just the fresh scent of recently laundried garments. But still, the subtle fresh warm, clean smell that catches my nose now and then again, in the cool morning air newly awakened, in the hours which are still dark and only lighted up by streetlights and moon perhaps, reminds me of you even more poignantly, and there is something about this cologne that calls me to trust you amidst all this uncertainty, tell me it is okay, that you are there, still there, steady and stable in your own way, especially when it comes to me. And at this time, that is nothing less than what I need, nothing more than I could really want.

I think about you often.